You do it because you love them, but sometimes it hurts. You just want them to understand your pain, but you don’t want to say anything to make them upset. So you sit there in silence, bottling in the hurt. You do it because you don’t want them mad at you. You just want them to be happy.
Then when you actually consider your own happiness, they get hurt instead. It sucks.
I sometimes wonder who really wants to hang out with me, or anyone even does. I’m always the one hitting people up first, or asking them to hang out. It would be nice if I was included in plans with my friends, but usually they don’t even tell me about it. It kind of sucks. I don’t even know what true friends are anymore.