It’s the same for me after every guy I fall for. It’s all fun and games at the start. Once things get real, I start to lose my mind. I start to think stupidly. I fall out of it, then fall back in. I get jealous, I try to move on from it.
Just because you have “the upper class friends” does not give you the rights to go run your mouth and hurt peoples feelings. You think that these “friends” of yours have your back? You think people are scared of them, no. They won’t do jack shit. Just shut your mouth, cause you have no idea what people fucking go through.
No one appreciates what I do for them. They don’t know how much effort I put into anything. I have to put other people’s happiness before mine to please others and I still get no appreciation. It’s like no one bothers to care what I do for them, I don’t even know why I try. I guess it’s because I care more for them than they care about me.
I want to go out on a date one day. A whole day, nothing big. Just a simple cute date. Mucking around, never ending conversations, laughs. Just forgetting about everything else. Stare at the beautiful stars to end the night.